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Nagging Thanks


As I rushed around the house getting myself ready for the Holistic Fair, where I was going as an intuitive vendor and wellness practitioner, I threw on an amethyst necklace gifted to me by my sister that matched my outfit.  A gentle nudge told me “that’s not the right one.”  My eyes were drawn to a beautiful fluorite pendant and intuition said “this one.”  The fluorite luckily found its way into my procession by a generous vendor at a community festival.  But I was in a hurry.  Ain’t nobody got time to change necklaces when the one I have on is perfectly fine…and matches my outfit!  I tossed the fluorite in my back pocket, because I physically could not leave without it, and headed out the door.  I had a long drive ahead of me.  About an hour and half into the drive I felt something gently slide, then drop down my shirt.  It felt as if someone had just floated by and unclasped my necklace.  When I pulled the necklace out, a small link had come apart.  I thought “no biggie” I’ll just re-attach the link, tighten it, and put it back on…simple as that.  I re-attached the link and tightened it down with my best pinching effort.  As I brought it up in front of my face to open the clasp, my jaw dropped.  I had totally negated the clasp and hooked the links together in a way that made the clasp useless (refer to picture for details).  How did I not notice what I was doing?!  The necklace isn’t big enough to fit over my head…great!  I tried to un-link the links to start over…they wouldn’t budge!  I thought “I pinched it down, surely I can pull it apart!”  No.  As a woman, I had looked forward to sporting a pretty crystal around my neck.  I suddenly remembered, my fluorite!  I reached back into my pocket and scolded myself for not listening to that ever-so-gentle nudge to wear the fluorite.  I could hear a heavenly giggle as I said “nice one guys!” I thanked them for their nagging capabilities and intervention.

God, the angels, our guides, and loved ones speak to us all the time.  They never leave our side and continue to watch and intervene appropriately as we carry on here on earth.  Interventions become more pronounced as you welcome them in as divine participants in your life.  Few people experience loud, booming voices, apparitions, or out of this world dreaming but this doesn’t mean you aren’t meant to experience the voice of Spirit.  The tangible things in this world may be the only way to get our attention without sending us to a psych ward.  Attention to the voice of intuition, which is always pleasant, kind, and loving, as well as those gentle nudges, misplaced objects, and coincidences…will open you up to a divine communication center.  Faith in life after death and a Creator is a hallmark of a happy life, it’s scientifically proven.  Our loving Creator wants to talk to us every day, wants to set our path straight and clear, wants to explain why things happen, and wants us to be happy and compassionate.  Spirit is ready to tell us exactly how to do it but we must pay attention to those ever-so-gentle nudges.

New Skin

snake

Certainly my death in another dimension was from a snake.  Fear of snakes is a common phobia, and I suffer with many.  I pray them out of my life and pray them away from my home…or at least away from my sight.  As a little girl, I remember playing at my grandmother’s farm.  She warned me “if you ever see a snake, you have one chance,” as she picked up a gardening hoe with a stern look, focusing her blue eyes she proceeded, “and you better hit it HARD!”  My grandmother said this in a jokingly-serious manner as she taught us how to protect ourselves.

As an adult, my husband and I purchased a home right on the cusp of city and country giving us land, trees and easy access to the highways.  You know what this means?  Snakes.  A small creek provides relief from the heat and acreage provides the serpent’s playground and cafeteria.  God has answered my prayers.  My husband spots them all the time in the yard, there’s been a few attic sightings, but never have we seen any in the house.  The best of all is that after 10 years, I’ve never physically seen ANY.  They prefer to visit me in my dreams.  Ugh…forgot to set that boundary…but let me tell you how this has been a good thing.

I often advise clients to honor the wisdom and companionship in animals.  Try to receive what they may be teaching you about yourself.  They are often carriers of God’s messages and a reflection of His wisdom. 

Snake has slithered throughout my dreams for years.  She has never harmed me but fear permeates the dream experience.  She’s simply observing me, I subconsciously freak out, and then the dream is over.  Last night was different because yesterday I stepped out of my comfort zone.  My undercover mediumship came to an end as I sat with my brother-in-law at a community health fair with a sign reading “Intuitive Mediums.” The messages delivered were mind-blowing and beyond anything we can give ourselves credit for. Now to the dream:

I was hovering above a water park, because you can do these kinds of things in dreams, observing as a rattlesnake was going down a water slide.  Initially, I was trying to warn all of the children—“there’s a snake!”  I suddenly stopped as I perceived fear in the snake.  The snake wanted nothing more than to experience the slide and return to her owner who was patiently waiting to catch her at the bottom.  Very similar to a child trying a water slide for the first time.  The child is scared, excited, nervous, and ready to be caught my mom or dad at the bottom. The snake got to the bottom of the slide, never rattled once, and swam immediately over to her owner and wrapped herself lovingly around him.  My heart softened.

I am now in the water with said rattlesnake.  I’m awaiting a warning rattle that she is about to strike.  Instead I feel her head slide under my hand, just as a dog requesting an ear rub.

She’s so excited I’m here.  I allow her to wrap herself around me.  Her leathery skin gives me a hug and warms me.  I didn’t realize I was chilled until her warmth reminds me.  She’s been sunning all day collecting heat and is happy to share it with me.  I feel as if I’ve reunited with a best friend I didn’t realize I missed.  I see every detail of her skin and rattle.  She’s plump and orange.  Her rattle is large and ivory—I can’t believe she’s so big.  She doesn’t need to use her rattle right now because she feels no threat or fear, just happiness, love, and excitement to be with me.

As my alarm jolted me awake, I immediately wondered “What did THAT mean?!”  Luckily I’ve studied animal symbology and am immediately reminded that the snake represents transformation, transmutation, and healing.  Snake often resides in the totems of healers and utilizes the power of the sun to heal.  Snake is an observer and quite sentient.  Snake is aware of the warmth of our soul.  I ended up feeling quite honored she befriended me and was kind enough to visit.  I awoke feeling as if a teacher had just congratulated me on a job well done.  My subconscious fear has been removed, and I know snake will assist in the transformation of the conscious fear.

How Can I be a Better Mother?

The Holistic Fair in Fort Worth is an event that hosts alternative practitioners, and those promoting holistic wellness. The biggest draw to me is just the idea. What do alternative practitioners do? Who are they? What do they look like, and what is this all about? These were the questions begging to be answered and which sucked me right in. I had to attend. Explaining what alternative practitioners do is not the focus of this blog; however, the lesson I learned by attending is.

I presented the question: What can I do to be a better mother? The practitioner looked away and thought for a second then responded “Love yourself more.” We proceeded to talk about what it means to love yourself, including the need to “forgive yourself.” I explained how some kind of deeply rooted, genetically inherited, out of this lifetime, anger does exists in me that I have to constantly harbor, and this makes it hard for me to love and forgive myself. My life is so wonderful, I have no justifiable reason to be so easily disappointed with myself.

I continued to explain to her that we all have those parenting moments that we’d rather forget. Most of mine are related to losing my cool. You ask your kids to do something once…twice…three times with a threat, then the parental bulging eyes and ear smoke start. Every parent experiences post freak out remorse and depression—how on earth am I to forgive myself for these parenting fails? For exposing my children to my anger?

love_yourself2To answer my question, she took me through a very simple breathing exercise. Then she led me in a mantra that brought me to tears. I had to repeat “I forgive myself for exposing my children to this anger” over and over until I believed it. I literally thought I’d never actually believe it, and I might as well give up…then after about 5 minutes I started to believe it. At that point, I understood slightly what it may mean to love myself more. We continued to talk about God’s eternal love and how it relates to the love we need to have for ourselves.

Another simple exercise illustrates this clearly: Make a list of things you hate about yourself. My hate list is about a mile long and I constructed it with ease…Next, make a list of the things you love about yourself. After thinking for 10 minutes I came up with three things.

How do we heal ourselves? The answer may be to first figure out how to love yourself. For me it started with forgiving myself for being…human.

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